For Once

Another day passes along

the worldly affairs rambling on;

Profound in my core prevails a hustle 

Comprehending not where I belong.

Certainly, arduous concealing it all within

& reminiscing days with no concerns; 

Anyhow, hard hits the reality

with constant being hesitation. 

Peek into that deepest corner of my heart

Whither fibs me desolate & solitary;

Wondering how no one ever reached–

the fraction wholly unmilitary! 

Solely bestowing you access;

to strive in & feel my distress.

For once...

वैसी बारिश अब नहीं होती

वैसी बारिश अब नहीं होती। 

जिसकी पहली बूंद पर मन महक उठता था

और उसका ख़्याल महज़ गुदगुदी दे जाता था

रूह थी ख़ुशगवार।

जानबूझकर भीगा करते थे 

फिर चाहे सर्द रातें क्यों न हों।

साफ चाहत, सुर्ख़ दिल और ये नीला आसमान 

एक और बौछार

फिर उसके आने का इंतजार।

फूलों की बरसात सी होती थी 

मिज़ाज़ बन सा जाता था।

हर कतरे के साथ उसका ख़्याल 

मेरे अल्फ़ाज़ों को संगीत देता था।

तेज़ ठंडी हवाएँ 

अंदर कुछ कशमकश 

फिर एक मौसम और बीत जाता था। 

वैसी बारिश अब नहीं होती। 

How I felt between...

Showing delicate contentment

& being immensely shattered within. 

Applauding for everyone

& longing myself. 

Joking around 

& wailing all alone myself. 

Participating in every major battle

& all defeated by myself. 

Comforting every way I could

& miserable by myself. 

Giving all that I have

& left empty inside. 

Calming each who sobbed

& weeping myself. 

The irony being these assumed lines

& all this being the certainty by itself.

By the lake

Deeply observing the lake

heedless I lay.

the cool showers of rain

soothing the heat strokes of may.

boats floating like leaves

silent & subtle.

And fishes splashing

formulating ample bubbles.

Subsequently swirling the whole spot 

my psyche comes to a halt,

Yet thunderstorms inside

do not tend to stop.

Serving the creamiest latte

off the shore is a cafe,

A part of me intends to flee for it

But the other one aspires to stay.

We're Broad-minded!

We're broad-minded.

We let her play

anyday.

We let her learn

with no concern.

We let her laugh

maybe half.

We're broad-minded.

shhhh! get inside-

Do not speak back

lay like a jute sac;

Do not fight for yourselves

Lie like empty shells.

Do not indulge in discussions 

& dare not develop an opinion!

We're broad-minded.

We make the rules

and authorize the moves.

We make assumptions

to help you function.

We are the ones 

who persuade tonnes. 

We're broad-minded.

A day at the forest

broken 💔

& you left me desolate

in the middle of nowhere

yet again...

leaving me devastated & shattered

with all the commitments

in vain...

Off fly thy thoughts

hard to ever prevail hereby.

I just found myself-

That me 

I once sacrificed for you.

I have learnt-

Learnt watching the rain

to help people like you 

rinse off in the drain. 

Still, all I have is gratitude

for I realized my worth

be it unknowingly

it seems my rebirth.

See me blooming

as the most glorious tree

But hey!

now harder to your reach.

BYE!